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11 August 2009

Think back six months ago, were you single?
single and available. I am still single and available

What do you carry with you at all times?
handphone, wallet, planner, pen

When you say you don’t care, do you mean it?
maybe

How are you feeling?
erm… like that lor. I cannot stand wang xi on tv

Is something wrong right now?
wang xi on tv. with bosco wong. i cannot belive the two of them are in the same drama

Are you mad at someone?
my dad for being so lazy

What’s on your mind?
i need to bathe

Are you jealous of someone right now?
erm… not really.

Do you have a piggy bank that’s actually shaped like a pig?
not mine, but my parents’. From their childhood. lol

Do you want to start over with anyone?
as in startover what?

Do you know if anyone likes you?
all my friends. and my family

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
haha not really. (omg wu xing er’s hair is so fulgy.

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Bathing. yes bathing

True love or 1 billion bucks?
True love. 1 billion bucks for a lonely heart? ney

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
I think i have pretty eyes.

Anything you would change about your life right now?
erm… many things. but i can’t change. i guess that is the challenge of life yar?

You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
erm… on my tai yang xue, like kat. von d. i think she is damn cool.

Could you cry right now?
yes.

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
haha yes. sounds so emo

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
it depends on the person.

Are you okay with the life you live?
life has never been so exciting.

Last person you told a secret to?
shhh is a secret

Do you like hugs?
LOVE LOVE LOVE

Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
the reality is harsh

When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday.

How much money did you spend today?
erm… around… hk$80~100?

What are you sitting on right now?
i am lying on the sofa. haha

What’s something you really want right now, be honest.
to meet cute guys. hahahaha

How do you feel about your hair right now?
still considering should i dye my hair

What did you do yesterday?
cry my shit off in the airport. laugh at all the love letters and feel loved.

Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
i will need some time to cool down first.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
friends.=)

When’s the last time you said you were fine and you really weren’t?
i dont really say that.

Is someone on your mind right now?
no.

Who’s birthday is coming up?
Eunice’s.

Were you happy when you woke up?
I will be too sleepy to think about such things

What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
bored

What’s the last thing you ate?
chicken rice. hk style. plus lemon tea.

Are you easy to get along with?
haha i guess so. if i am not pissed off or something.

Ever cheated on someone?
i am the most truthful person u can ever meet

Who is the last person to send you a text?
the telecom company.

What are you currently listening to?
the tv. OMG IS BOSCO AND WANG XI TOGETHER!!!! EWWWW my eyes are blinded. i shall go bath now.

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27 February 2011

Think back six months ago, were you single?
I have given up. I think I will always be single. whatever.

What do you carry with you at all times?
handphone, earplugs(so that I can listen to songs via the handphone) and wallet

When you say you don’t care, do you mean it?
I doubt.

How are you feeling?
Stuck. I cant think of the storyboard

Is something wrong right now?
The storyboard, the portfolio, and myself.

Are you mad at someone?
well…

What’s on your mind?
I think wo hai man xiao qi de.

Are you jealous of someone right now?
Not really. I am more like pissed off.

Do you have a piggy bank that’s actually shaped like a pig?
No.

Do you want to start over with anyone?
start over what. start over watching gintama again? I am not finished yet.

Do you know if anyone likes you?
if you mean romantically, I doubt.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I wish I am.

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
doing my portfolio? or storyboard

True love or 1 billion bucks?
What about both

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
hahahahahaha…. no.

Anything you would change about your life right now?
Yar. certainly.

You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
I wont get one.

Could you cry right now?
No.

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
I have not been crying for very long already. Which I think is bad.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Always.

Are you okay with the life you live?
Certain aspect yes certain aspect no.

Last person you told a secret to?
I think I am a more humourous person then.

Do you like hugs?
Will you give me one?

Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
I dont know. I am in a cynical mode now.

When was the last time you cried?
I can’t remember. When was the last time I cried?
How much money did you spend today?
0. yes is worth celebrating.

What are you sitting on right now?
bed.

What’s something you really want right now, be honest.
Silence.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
is looking fine.

What did you do yesterday?
Ate nice food and listen to nice music. I love the Spanish.

Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
I think I will be the one telling my friend’s secret away.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
the usual people. You know who you are.

When’s the last time you said you were fine and you really weren’t?
Seems like as you grow older the frequency of this increase yar?

Is someone on your mind right now?
okita. SORRY.

Who’s birthday is coming up?
Pung.

Were you happy when you woke up?
I was. now I am not. I think is PMS.

What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
worried. what if i cannot finish the stuff in time?

What’s the last thing you ate?
oak biscuits.

Are you easy to get along with?
No. Really. NO. I suck at dealing with social situation.

Ever cheated on someone?
No.

Who is the last person to send you a text?
joanne.

What are you currently listening to?
some songs. which i don’t know the name.

Day 30- Who are you?

Yes I finally reached day 30!

In the beginning I really wanted to do this within a month. But eventually it dragged on. But I guess is more epic to end this whole thing on the last day of 2010 yar? I didn’t plan for this, but that is how life is.

SO. Who am I?

This is so tough. A super tough question to answer.

I also don’t know who am I.

According to vol. 9 of saiyuki reload (Yes I am so sorry because I don’t really read proper books so I cannot quote from them. All I can quote is from manga. anime. and movies. or sometimes drama. I am so sorry I am so not cultured. oh but i am pop-cultured. ok not funny.), there are two ways people recognize their own existence. First is through oneself- our own conscious.Which is of course built upon time and experience. The second is through others- to reflect upon ourselves, our conscious, and further strengthen the establishment of our existence.

So I cannot really define myself without you guys.

So why don’t you tell me who am I?

otaku?whiny bitch? awkward and shy? Self-delusional? narcissistic? Over thinker? slacker? messy? insert your own adjective here?

Right now I am having a dilemma whether to do a ” 2010 list of things that I have done” I only remember things that happened from may onwards. Because before that was school term. Year 1 sem 2. and that seems to belong to 2009. I still count the year by school terms. hope you get what I mean. if I really want to do, that means I need to refer back to my old entries. but I still need to finish drawing the sketch of the panels. Yes I shall not do panelling and sketching and inking within 20 days only. and I want to watch the new studio ghibi movie? oh I need to call my friend to sort out our hp date. Yes I have yet to watch harry potter.  and I am resisting the urge to watch one more epsiodes of gintama. OH I NEED TO GO OUT TO GET MY HUI XIANG ZHENG. If not I cannot go to china. zomg.

from the above paragraph you can roughly define who I am? Maybe. maybe not.

Oh yes I decided that I need not do the ” 2010 list of things that I have done”. Because facebook has done that for me.

Yes. That is my year. According to the fb apps.and I think is a good summary.

Maybe zomg can define who am I too?

So who am I? I really don’t know.

But I guess is quite meaningless to try to define myself. Because I am ever changing? My cells are renewing themselves every single day. So every day a ‘new’ biological me is formed. So I am full of potential! why create a mould for myself to fit myself in?

So who am I? I need not answer that. There is no need for it.

So an early Happy New Year people. Love you guys. To the max. Forever. Even after the day we part the world.

Lets wait for the moment when 2010 magically turns 2011.

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

The year is ending soon. only around 12 more hours yar?

For the past month…

I learnt that Gintama is super nice

I learnt the real spirit of professionalism. As a christmas present, I bought my mum tickets to Andy Lau’s concert. She had always wanted to see his show. It was held yesterday and of course I accompanied her. I wasn’t expecting much from it though. Mainly because I don’t really know much of his songs. Ok I know his songs like 忘情水 since they have been such a hit in the 90s. But they are not part of my.. erm… life? my era? like, jay chou is my era. Lady Gaga is my era. andy lau is not my era. no 共鸣.

But at the end of the show, I nearly ended up crying. Not because of his songs. Is because of the whole production. The whole production, from the lighting to the dancers to the clothings, are so damn freaking professional. The effects are so freaking nice ok. So damn freaking spectacular. You can really tell everyone put in so much effort into the show. And you can tell that they do it with passion and love. You can really tell. Is not those half-ass i-am-just-here-to-earn-some-money concert. Is a concert that is really there to entertain you. Is a concert that put the audience above anything else. It was four sided stage so everyone can see. and they did not ignore audience up in the mountain i.e. poor people like us. The stage can freaking rise up to our level ok. all four sides.

and andy lau. zomg. Now I understand why people love him. Is not his songs ok. Really not his songs. nor his acting. Is his personality. He really treats everyone, even those sai kang dudes, with respect. He kept thanking the dancers. Thanking everyone. And you can tell that is not fake. Is not those hypocritical thank yous you get. Is sincerely deep down from the heart. I am not a people-person. But I am quite certain of my sense when i comes to judging people’s sincerity. I can really tell he is really very sincere. and I can really tell that he loves his job. and he is putting 101% into it. I mean, a 50 years old guy running around the stage continuously non-stop for 3 full hours. Is not easy ok. and he didn’t even pant. He didn’t even show his tiredness. Up right till the end of the show he is still like smiling, and thanking everyone to make the show great. oh yes. and he didn’t think that the show is his. Is THE WHOLE PRODUCTION. He recognised that it is not THE andy lau show. Is THE WHOLE FREAKING PRODUCTION TEAM SHOW.

yes. the whole show was the display of true teamwork and true professionalism. How long did they prepare? How much money did they put in? and How much passion did they give? Seriously. I was so damn freaking touched by the passion. Yes it did show through ok. You can’t hide passion from the creation. You really cannot hide.

So why am I complaining about not sleeping for 2 months? I bet andy lau didn’t sleep properly for thirty years ok. and he didn’t eat rice for 30 years. Yes celebrities don’t eat carbohydrates in case they go fat.

and zomg sammi was the guest. SAMMI!!! Sammi is so cool. I like sammi. not her songs, but her personality. her person.

So from the show yesterday I learnt about real team work and passion. That is what we call professional. And I am spurred to work even harder. For the past one month I have been in a nihilistic state.  “what the heck god is dead people god is dead.” “oh we all die eventually. why bother”. But after that show yesterday I got out. I still think nihilism is a smart way of thinking, but I prefer to be stupid. and work my ass off. Burn away my life. Be entangled with all those humane problems. Yar Buddhism has a point about achieving Nirvana and all. But I think is more exciting to worry about all those 七情六欲. To be sinful. To hate to love.

Because that is what life is about yar?

How did one concert make me think so much? I don’t know. Maybe I like to over think. But heck. Over think is my forte. That is what I learnt in the past one month too. Or rather, past one year.

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

This was from last year.

This was taken… a month ago?

If you are observant enough, you can see that the above photo from this year is my fb profile pic. Before photoshop.

so what is the greatest change?

THE EYEBAGS.

can you freaking see the lines? can you see last year photo? can you see that there was NO EYEBAGS AND LINES UNDER THE EYES??? so I am not joking when I say I am aging ok. I am freaking aging. zomg. so why am I still up at this hour? why? I should sleep to keep my youth.

and besides that…

can you see the setting of the photos? One is set in disneyland. One is set in my home.

Yes. I have become more zhai after a year.

actually i changed my specs too. but since the this year photo didn’t show that, lets ignore this.

o and the hair of course.

what else…

I think lines and eyebag is the biggest and most glaring change of all. and i hate it.

 

Day 26- What you think about your friends

They are all weird.

Really.

I mean, who analyzes KFC chicken from all over the world? (apparently Amercian KFC is H.E.A.V.E.N.L.Y.)

Or go around googling pickachu cosplayers and put them on the blog to freak people out?

Or spend her time before bed recalling the floor plan of Nee Ann City?

Or paint herself blue?

Or refuses to switch on the heater despite of the cold simply because her self-proclaimed Hakka pride? (does being a Hakka means you are immune to the snow? If i am not wrong Hakka people live in the southern part of china and they don’t even freaking have snow there.)

Or go on cyber sex only at a tender age of 10? (ok that is not weird. is immoral. ZOMG.)

Or banning people from singing ye zi for no reasons?

Or, or or. so much more examples.

They are really all damn weird.

And the weirdest thing is, they are willing to befriend me? me? hello? ME?

I am a freaking social outcast. Or at least I think I am. I mean, spending long periods on the net and having crushes on fictional characters? that is the mark of a social outcast people.

But they seem to fine with it. and make it acceptable for me to continue all my whining and pet peeves.

But I will appreciate them even more if they can just stop being grammar/pronunciation Nazi.

=)

Day 25 – what someone would find in my bag

Hand phone

wallet

lush lip bum

some random pieces of recipt

some random pieces of paper

rubbish

that is all.

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Dear Mummy and 老豆,

I don’t think I am the best daughter around. But you guys still love me. A lot. I think is because of this thing called 羈伴. Not that naruto movie. According to the internet, the word first appeared in《汉书·叙传上》：“今吾子已贯仁谊之羁绊，系名声之韁锁。”. Other appearance include the followings:

唐 罗邺 《莺》诗：“却笑金笼是羁绊，岂知瑶草正芬芳。”

宋 吴曾 《能改斋漫录·神仙鬼怪》：“世上更无羇绊事，壶中别有自由身。”

元 关汉卿 《望江亭》第一折：“俺也曾把世味亲尝，人情识破，怕甚么尘缘羁绊？”

刘成章 《安塞腰鼓》“容不得束缚，容不得羁绊。”

From the above, you can see that the original meaning is 束缚,  something that holds you down for life, usually refers to relationships. Is kind of a negative word.

However, as cultural exchange happened and the Japanese took that word for their own use, the meaning kind of changes slightly. The word comes to mean a strong connection. unexplainable strong connection between people. Can be both good and bad. But I guess that is the beauty of that word. Because human relationships are never that clear cut. is not a mathematical problem.

i think that is the best description of my relationship with you guys. 羈伴. unbreakable bond. and that need not reasons.is for life.

Love,

Chi Ching

 

Revisit Day 15- put your ipod on shuffle. first 10 songs that play.

Now that I have uploaded a decent number of songs in my itunes, lets do this again.

1) No Thank You- HTT

2) Dance in the Dark – Lady Gaga

3)约翰蓝侬 －五月天

4) Dani California- RHCP

5)晴天－周杰伦

6)同一种调调－周杰伦

7)Zankoku Na Tenshi No These- Yoko Takahashi

8)爱在西元－周杰伦

9）小手拉大手－梁静茹

10）Life is wonderful- Jason Mraz

I am so sorry. but out of 10 songs I have  3 anime songs. and one is sung by a 2-d band called HTT. how loser is that. I dislike k-on because it is boring and is stupid but I like their songs. anyway I don’t remember where I read, but HTT happened to have 3 songs or more up on the top-ten anime songs  chart, voted by high school students. and guess which was the number one song of the list! yes! is Zankoku Na Tenshi No These! EVA’s opening! I have it here too! classic. but I wonder why isn’t doreamon’s theme song up on the list. I mean, is so cheerful. I like it. so i seriously doubt the credibility of this listing. and 3 are jie lun’s songs. old ones.

Actually I have all the gaga songs too but this shuffle only happen to play one.

oh anyway I really like Firework. is so encouraging. Especially for a time like this for me.

Boom Boom Boom even brighter than the moon moon moon

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Time. Please give me time. I need time. I promise I won’t procrastinate if I have time.

OH MY TIAN PLEASE GIVE TIME TO ME.

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

The fact that I think I am different makes me different from everyone else.

Is all in the mind people.

If you think you are different, you are different.

If you think you are the same, you are the same.