YES THANK YOU. I WILL NOT GO FACEBOOK AND TIEBA FOR A WEEK. I WILL SACRIFICE READING THE LATEST CHAPTER OF GINTAMA FOR A WEEK. THANKS ALLAH. THANKS BUDHHA. THANKS GUANYIN. THANKS GOD. THANKS WHOEVER UP THERE. I GOT THE LAST TICKET. THE VERY LAST TICKET. YESSSSSSSSSSS
Dear Allah Buddha god guanyin whoever up there,
Please let me get the tickets. my mum and I have been calling/refreshing the page for the past one hour and nothing is happening. Please, please let us get it. if we can get it, I promise I will not facebook for a week. Please, I beg you. really. I will not facebook for a week. and I will not tieba for a week.
So please, let me get the tickets. Let me get the tickets. Let us get the tickets. Let us get the tickets.
Yours very very sincerely,
chip
At KFC today, I saw a menu for student. Being a cheapskate, naturally I will want to check it out. The counter auntie noticed it, and immediately she responded.
Obnoxious discriminating auntie: These meals are only for STUDENTS. Wearing a UNIFORM (At this moment I was kind of like disappointed) or have a STUDENT CARD.(Yes she really stressed those words)
me: Oh I have a student card.
Obnoxious discriminating auntie: *eyeing me with disbelief* Well, you will have to SHOW ME.
me: SURE. *flash my student card*
Obnoxious discriminating auntie: * scrutinize my student card, making sure that it is not fake or dated or borrowed from someone*…. ok. $28. *still eyeing me with disbelief*
Well, just because my hair is in a atrocious brownish-i-dont-know-what colour and I am eating at KFC during normal school/work time, doesn’t mean that I am some sort of jobless hobo who cheat for student meals. I have integrity and honesty one ok. I stil l remember my 誠信勇忠.
anyway this is not the first time I face this kind of thing already. The other time when I was going for the sunrise talk, I met my neighbour. Oh they family has a very cute daughter. since it was 8.00a.m early in the morning and people of my age usually doesn’t appear so early on an weekend, naturally the mum will use this as a conversation starter:
Mum: Oh my you are going to work on a weekend?
Me: No. I am not working.
Mum: wow you are going out to play so early??
Me: I am going for a talk
Mum: OH YOU ARE STILL SCHOOLING????
Yes. she said that in disbelief. She really said that in disbelief.
And is not that I look old or something. Because everytime when the surveyors try to pounce on me they will still naturally ask me if I am below 20.
So it just means that society thinks that I am a hobo. a jobless rebellious problematic teen. Seriously, it is very irritating that every time I go home late because of school, people will ask me if I am out playing. Hello? Which part of me look like I am playing? cant you see the STRESS IN MY EYES??? Cant you freaking see that I am figuring out a sitemap in my mind NOW????? It makes me very pissed. Like super.
Oh well I sound like a contradictory whiny elitist here. Oh god. Why. Why am i acting so elitist when I am actually so stupid.
oh why am i slashing myself.
It has to be PMS then.
SInce I have already procrastinated for 3 hours ( I know I suck) let me procrastinate more.
Just saw vina’s list of relationships with manga/anime series, and I feel like counting mine too. But of course, I doubt I can write a proper paragraph each for each series because you know how bad I am at expressing and I may just end up with things like “OMG MOTHER OF GOD.” But still, Let’s begin
Shoujo
Sailor moon
Seriously, without sailormoon, there wont be the me today. She totally opened me up to the route to otakudom. And she was the one who made me ended up in design. (She was the one who made me pick up a pencil to draw. Of course, now that I know design is not drawing, but, well, that is another story and a complicated one.) She changed my life. When I was still young she was really that perfect pretty girl. But now when I looked back, I realised, she was actually quite screwed up. In a lot of ways. I doubt I will like her if I have dated her now. But still, she is irreplaceable.
Cardcaptor sakura
She was the one who pulled me back into journey of otakudom. During the first 5 years in singapore, I really didn’t get in touch of any thing related to ACG. Really. Nothing. There were no manga stores around my house and no anime showing on TV everyday. and then she appeared. One fine Saturday afternoon. Do you know how I feel when I saw her? Is like seeing a long lost friend. and I fell in love with her immediately. Madly in love. but it was very irrational. Because there were many things about her which I hate, the drawing style, the weird BL, the pedophiliac intentions, a lot. So many things that my young mind couldn’t take. But she was the only one around then. The only one. Well, I really don’t know I love her, or I hate her. But you get what I mean.
Nana
Omg where should I start. She is so dramatic and every time when I am with her I feel like I am in an emotional rollar coaster. And I will be so worked up about the terrible things that happened to her that I will start hugging her and scream NOOOOOOOoooooo WHY IS THE WORLD SO UNFAIR TO YOU!!! But when I cool down, or when I am away from her, all logical and sane, I will be like, “dafuq?” Seriously, all the pain she goes through, is self-inflicted. She can totally live a happy life but she must be so self-destructive. After after realizing that, I will feel so angry.
Paradise kiss
We only dated for a day or so. and seriously, it was the worst date ever. I feel like punching her. really. punching her, right in her face. I don’t understand why she is so popular but I feel angry just by the mention of her name.
Kimi ni todake
She is just … so sweet. OMG. She is just so sweet. I know she is plain. Indeed very plain. But for some reason when you get to know her you will realise what a really sweet girl she is. and she is so refreshing. She is like the breeze on a spring day. She is the girl next door that you can never hate. at the same time she is so sensitive. How can anyone hate such a sweet, sensitive girl?
Alice Gakuen
Oh she is a funny girl gone wtf. Seriously, when I first dated her I thought she was cute, light hearted and funny. but in the middle for no reason she started to go wtf. Wtf is really the best thing to describe her now. She wanted to be dramatic like nana and huge like one piece AT THE SAME TIME. I dont understand her emotions, I don’t understand her intentions, I don’t understand her actions. i just don’t understand her at all. I feel like dumping her but since is her last act I may just as well finish it to give the relationship a proper end.
Glass Mask
She is an old lady. Her fashion sense and world view is so old-fashioned. But for some reason, you just can’t resist her. She puts you on an emotional rollar coaster, but you wont feel angry at her like the way you will feel at Nana. and should I tell you beneath her demure romantic surface is a burning hot-blooded heart. She is the most hot-blooded lady I have ever seen.
Shounen
One piece
He is god. Omg. No doubt. After 9 years, he still manages to interest me. He is a pure genius. Well recently he is in a slump, but I can tell that he is picking himself up again. He is the one who made me tear. And he is the one who gave me dreams. He is the one who tells me that I can be anything. He is the most inspirational guy I have ever met. and all I can say is thank you. Without him, I wouldn’t have chosen the path I am in today. He is just as irreplaceable as sailor moon. He changes my life.
Bleach
Oh he is like Alice Gokuen. A hot guy turned hobo. We had good times, but seriously, he gave me so much false hope. He promised me SOOOO many things, but he either forgets about them, or do them in such a sloppy way. And I don’t understand his actions and words now a days. They are so minimalist to the point that I have no idea what he is trying to say. and I cant understand why he is still around. He should just leave the stage in honor, rather than hang around in the backdrop struggling to catch the attention of others like a sad dog. Well, but he recently promised that this will be his last act. Please do it properly, and let things end in a blast.
Full Metal Alchemist
He is an intellectual guy who gave me valuable philosophy lessons. He made me think. He showed me the sad contradictions in life. He told me that life has no easy answer. He influenced many of my world-views. But sometimes he is kind of naggy. A little too naggy and righteous in fact and it puts me off a little. But I will still meet him up once in a while whenever I needed some kind of enlightenment.
Gintama
He is a big fat madao. But he is the sinner who who took my soul away. He is the one who throw me down into the otakudoom. He is the one who made me procrastinate and spend times of forums which I thought I would never do. He made me lazy. He is a very bad influence. But he is just too funny and charming. In an unexplainable and weird way. and every now and then he will do gestures that makes me want to cry. I can’t believe that when I first met him I actually despise him and his low class manners. But now, omg. He is the first one that makes me want to spend on him. Why, can anyone tell me why am I so mesmerize by him despite of his lack of looks and manners and content?
Death Note
Recently I am meeting up with him again and omg. I didn’t realise he is actually a comedian. HE IS SO FUNNY. All his “serious and intelligent” dialogues are in fact jokes. They are all jokes. My impression of him changed 180 degrees. and that makes me like him more. I am not sure why I see him so differently now. Is either gintama changed my sense of humour, or it was actually an intention of his. I mean, epic potate chip eating is really too epic to not laugh. And on a side note, I like Light more than L now. Because he is so much more retarded than L. L eccentricity can no longer charm me, but Light’s 中二 plans and evil laugh are too funny to resist.
And others
Saiyuki
I am not sure if he is a shoujo material or a shounen material, so let me just put him here.
But first, I must say: He is special. Yes. He is really very special. I don’t understand why, but he just sticks with me. Maybe is his looks, or his emo personality, but I just like him. Is a different kind of love from One piece or gintama. Is like… his smell just lingers around? Though he is such a melancholic person, I don’t hate him. He is those type of guys who is very quiet and low profile, but you can just spot him immediately in a crowd because there is just this aura around him. And many things that he said just stick in my head. Like this line:
吃的饱饱随时随地都在玩，愤怒、哭泣、欢笑，活下去，活下去，活下去。
Just hope he comes back. I am missing him.
Lucky Star
She is very normal looking, to the point that you wonder why she is an anime. But there is just this eccentricity around her that is so charming. she is someone you can find when you are bored or when you want a good laugh. I think one valuable point about her is that she can express and describe the small daily experience so vividly that it becomes interesting. She gives you a fresh view into daily routine or habits. She is just like me. and I think this is the special sentiment that I share with her. and oh, she is such an otaku.
Neon Genesis Evangelion
I don’t know if I like him, or I hate him. I mean, half the time I don’t know what he is saying, but he just seems so deep. but he somehow managed to create many many atmospheric moments that I will remember. and he horrified me so many times with his violence and sexual reference. He is just… very controversial. and depressing.
Keroro
He is cute. He is like that bubbly small boy boy that makes you laugh at his naivety. but at moments you wonder if he is actually a horny guy in disguise. But well, for some reason our dates just get more and more boring as times go by. Is like, he just keep repeating his tricks and gags. and slowly he just faded out of my life.
Higurashi Naku Koro Ni
He is so violent. and scary. He made me have nightmares ok. and I dated him by mistake. he looked like another lucky star but he is actually a psychotic killer. Omg the finger nail pulling scene. Oh god. Kind of scarred me for life. But the way he tell his story is so intriguing. He doesn’t do it in a linear form. Rather, he tells them across parallel universe. and all these disjointed fragmented stories managed to flow and converge to a single exciting and heart racing point. Oh not to forget, he is actually quite a 正直 and optimistic person. As in, he got his moral values correct. and he is actually very encouraging. I know that sounds weird, but he is just such a weird guy.
… I cannot believe I have procrastinated for SO LONG. Oh god. oh my god.
Well, I shall, do my english assignment now. (yes I have english assignments. writing design proposal. god.)
Listening to songs keep you awake and help u stay focus. and I have developed a habit of only looping ONE SONG so that I will not be distracted by the sudden change of voice and melody and tune and so on. Like you know, my playlist is a so incoherent. on one hand I have smoothing spanish guitars piece on the other I have bad romance. so. is better to loop only one song.
and I loop non-english and chinese songs. to avoid distraction. Dont you tend to listen for lyrics when you hear songs of your language? When I do that I will go all contemplative and stuff. if it is jap or korean, i understand shit and it will just be nice sounding noise at the background.
and it better be fast paced songs. Because personally i like fast songs. and it will make me stress and think faster.
so valentines day is officially over!
The one happy news I have heard is that my classmate is getting married soon. With her boyfriend since Form 6? or 7. And is not a short gun marriage. they have been planning about it since last year I think. and what is even more heartwarming about this marriage, is that her boy friend, is actually, erm, quite mean to say, quite older than her and he is … not handsome. *cough* you know what I mean.
Seriously. is a open silent criticism that everyone has when they see the photos.
And she is a cute blubbly photographer who will only take pictures of pretty girls. She once said she will give discounts to clients who are prettier. and she will charge those who are ugly more. seriously.
so. this can only mean one thing.
Is true love.
Is not a love about looks. or income. (the guy is not like exceptionally rich. he is just a normal photo journalist in a magazine.) is true love. Ok maybe you will be suspecting about the guy’s bad intention or pedophiliac inclination, but, if he is really bad, they wont be together for so long. And every time she talks about him there will be sparks in her eyes. Like you know, her eyes REALLY sparkles. Have you ever seen someone who sparkles when he or she talks about their girlfriends or boyfriends? She just looks so vibrant whenever she mentions him.
This got to be true love. And I am happy that someone I know has found true love.
To give up. is NOT an option. To fail, is NOT an option. To run away, is NOT an option. To stand still and freeze and do nothing, is NOT an option.
You can only move forward. Move girl MOVE
Please call me a loser. Because i think I am so stupid and I have no integrity.
I want to just fail so that I can start from ground zero and start building up things again. It is really very revolting, to be suck in the middle of a project that doesnt work at all. and each time you thought u saw light is actually a bunch of shit.
Seriously, this is worse than A’levels. I never want to give up for A’levels. But right now, I am on the verge of giving up. Yes. I am really thinking about it and considering it an option. What is wrong with me. When did I become so undetermined. and When did I become so lazy to think about stuff.
I missed one day of FYP. But is totally WORTH it. 100%. The fact that I got the signature and a photo from 佐籐順一, the guy who produced Keroro, who directed SAILORMOON (sailormoon ok. and is the FIRST SEASON AND SECOND SEASON OF SAILORMOON OK) and 娛樂金魚眼 and 夢之蠟筆王國 and 小魔女Doremi, is, omg. Basically my favourite childhood romantic comedies are directed by him ok. and he did storyboarding for EVA and Cowboy Bebop ok. and the insider talk from 井上幸一 who manages projects like Gundam (GUNDAM OK GUNDAM. THE LEGENDARY GUNDAM. AND BASICALLY IS ALL OF GUNDAM. ALL) is, omg. and the extra special bonus when he said “well actually my favourite project was Matchless Raijin-Oh”, I was like, OMG. MATCHLESS RAIJIN-OH WAS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SHOW WHEN I WAS 4. I still got the robot ok. The show is damn cool ok the school can transform into a robot ok ok!
SEE THE SCHOOL CAN TRANSFORM INTO A ROBOT. OMG
When when they did the Sunrise showreel, from 1977 all the way to 1998 (Well they didnt manage to show all years because there was no time and everyone was so upset. But still managed to watch the 2006 only showreel which has GINTAMA in it. And when gin san appear everyone was so hyper. I feel happy because there are so many people sharing the same feelings as me), I realised that I have watched SO MANY of their shows. You know, those that you forgot but when you are shown you will be like OMG THAT SHOW!!! and is wonderful and people all around you were like OMG THAT SHOW!!! REMEMBER THAT SHOW I WATCHED WHEN I WAS 5!!! Anyway the panel was kind of surprise at our overactive reactions. But I wonder how they feel when they saw happy faces watching things they have produced.
The way they change the gear, the way the engine bar moves up and down, the way the car turns at a bend, omg.
Both my brother and I like it alot. My favourite character was the little girl 火美子 because she is a ninja and she creates so much trouble for 河馬師傅 who always become so handsome for no reason when hot gals appear.
and a lot of other series which seems so familiar that I am quite sure I have watched it before. Thank you TVB for showing me all these when I was young. Every weekday from 4.30p.m to 6p.m. And thank you sunrise for making all these cool mecha series. They made my childhood happier.
Ok enough of fan raving.
anyway i think the highlight of the whole seminar was when die hard gundam fans question about the latest gundam series Gundam Age. Unlike the past few seasons, this one is geared towards the children and so the plot is some how childish and stupid.( i dont know since I am no gundam fan but, well that is what they said) and the die hard fans are unhappy. They looked so upset and betrayed when they raised the questions. and the panel gave awkward expressions. They tried to explain the economics and marketing side of the whole series and brand, but seemed like the fans didnt buy their explanation. And to me all of a sudden Sunrise seem so… pragmatic and commerical? Ok what I am talking about they are a corporation and their aim is to make money. But when they say things like “we do marketing research” “we hand out surveys to children” “we have tight budgets” “unfortunately animators are paid low” “We are always ready and happy to make more mecha anime but due to circumstances and sponsors reflection we can’t” ” We tried to explore the moe market but it didnt work” …. all of a sudden… it seems like… there are so many compromises to artistic freedom. And is like… dreams and love are fabricated for money? I dont know how to put it. but when you see the massive web of commercial involvement in something you love… Ok I really dont know how to put it.
Maybe I am too idealistic.
Anyway I have to applaud the translator. She is one of the best translator I have seen in seminars. You know for the past seminars I had went, half the time I have no idea what the translator was saying?Like the other time I went to the French BODW. Omg. I was totally lost. this translator was so fluent. And despite of the fact that she knows nuts about ACG she still tried her best to translate all the titles. And i think is kind of embarrassing for her when audiences have to correct her title and slang translations. In the end she gave up and asked the audience instead what title the panel is refering to. Must be hard for her, to be the only outsider in this whole ACG thing. I tell you, is really bad. Is like if you throw me into a group of Hip Hop kids I will feel so stupid and left out.
Anyway every time I go to this kind of otaku related stuff, I will realize how amateurish I am. Seriously, those people, asked the panel, in fluent japanese. FLUENT JAP ok. and they know ALL the titles and insider news and rumours and trends and upcoming stuff. They are so familiar with this whole industry and culture that even the panel are surprised. and when the show reel was being showed they can like tell what the series is just by hearing the first note of the theme song. and they actually prepare gifts for the panel with long jap letters. And they bought expensive gundum model kit and keroro Blue Ray disc for the panel to sign, in golden marker. and when they get back their signature they will express their emotions and thoughts and insights for at least 5 mins with the panel. in Jap. IN JAP OK. I feel stupid taking out my sketch book/notebook/rubbish book with pens that I stole from hotels. and the only thing I can say to 佐籐順一 is “keroro, daisuki.” That is all. Omg there is still a long way for me to go to attain ultimate enlightenment.
Ok actually this seminar is to comment on the wining works of an digital media competition. And seeing those works from hong kong make me feel like there is hope. And the winner is from Poly U digital media.
ok time to bathe. then FYP.
This is only 1/3 of the actual wall. and all the posts are damn long essays and articles. and the due to the lack of space the school recently added another temporary pinboard for the students. I have never seen refresh rate of this wall so fast. Usually the same complaint or expression stays on the wall for like at least… a month? and recently is like every two days new posts are up. and what I saw on saturday was already gone. and I have never seen so many students crowding around this wall. You know how people usually walk pass it like it never exist? No longer happening now. every minute i see at least 10 students standing around there. and more importantly, what used to be mudane childish complaints like “boo lousy hall warden! treat us like adults!” become a slash between the mainland and local students. and When i say slash, I really mean slash. spontaneous remarks fill in quick. some are mature and just, but sad to say majority of them are like, one liner of obscenity and hatred. Typical comment to an article goes like this:
(An article expressing problems caused by mainlanders)
Mainland student: *circle the whole chunk about how mainlanders never pay Hong Kong tax, HARD* 香港人你们有交国税吗？？？？
Hong Kong student:*draw arrows to the mainland student comment, HARD* 交俾邊個？XXX黨嗎？？？？？
Then there will be more arrows and circles with a mix of traditional and simplified Chinese.
I just dont know what to say anymore.
On one hand it is very revolting to see mainlanders acting all superior calming that they are the “father”
(anyway to this I will like to use the classic Star Wars analogy:
Darth Vader: I am your father
Luke: NOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooo )
But on the other it is very disgracing to see hong kong people using violent language to respond. I mean… what does it show when we start name callings? immature and racist. then what is the difference between us and 孔慶東？
（Anyway 富士山下is a really nice song. Such a remake really take away the artistic integrity of the song. )
I really see no point in all these slashing. It just make me feel disgusted at humanity. As a whole.
On a less serious note, I am starting a 10-7 policy for my FYP. I will go to the studio at 10, and do work until 6, then I will go home and relax and work on personal projects. I think that is healthier, and a more reasonable use of time.
